Mysteries of The Dark
Every life begins with a struggle in the dark against all odds.
Consider, if you can try, all of history and all the events throughout all time that led to your birth, it is truly remarkable. Even if you were to narrow down the scope of events to only the amount of things that needed to line up in the lives of your parents, it is both on a macro and micro level beyond our comprehension. We simply cannot fathom the circumstances that led to you being here.
There is a reason you are here.
You have a purpose.
It is possible that we go our entire lives and not realize our significance but that does not mean it is not there or any less. There are mysteries to all of our lives and enigmas inside of us. Life has a way of taking us where we need to go even if we don’t fully see or understand the path. Right now you found your way here to read my words and even though I may not know you I feel like I can connect with you in this way and there is a reason we found each other. We do not know why we are drawn in certain directions and to what ends, we only know that we inexplicably are. We can feel it.
We can feel it in our hearts.
We can feel it in what our hearts yearn for.
We may not know why the heart wants but we know it to be true.
The heart wants what the heart wants.
In my heart of hearts I wanted the impossible. When I was a child I knew I wanted to be a magician so I learnt in the only way I could. Knowing it was impossible for me to perform sleight of hand and use the techniques of magicians I focused on the techniques of the mind. Studying psychology, hypnosis, suggestion, and memory I was able to create unique performances to create the sensation of the impossible in people’s minds. Success breeds confidence and my early successes made me bolder and dream bigger. I didn’t only want my magic to take place in people’s minds and imagination, I wanted it to be real, I wanted it to be something that they could see and touch.
But I had a problem… Close-up magic requires good hands, dexterous fingers, quick and precise movements and even if the old adage, the hand is quicker than the eye, is not technically true, it is not totally untrue. Close-up magic is extremely difficult and not many men or women on this earth have ever reached the highest branches of the art of sleight of hand. And to reach it without hands?
Forget it.
Impossible...
or so I thought, so I believed, I knew it could not be done.
Yet… I had to try.
The task, though, was so intimidating that I decided to delay it to my seventeenth birthday. When my birthday came I was filled with excitement and dread. That evening I waited in the dark until my family was asleep and took out the deck of cards. I couldn’t do anything with it. I couldn’t shuffle, I couldn’t cut, I couldn’t even pick up the deck. The cards are slippery when new and I had no idea what I was doing. Totally blind I sat up in my bed with the deck on my lap, staying up all night handling the cards and when I went to school the next morning I was exhausted. The next night I repeated and the next night as well, this would become my routine as the days turned to weeks and the weeks turned into months. Little by little I became acquainted with the cards.
I remember it so well but yet it is as a half remembered dream. I can see everything so clearly even though I was completely in the dark. The dark brings out what is within. The absence allows you to envelope yourself. I know it, I feel it, I feel its imprint on my soul; how it all shaped me, how it charted out what was to become my life. Those long, dark nights hidden in the shadow of my secret dreams. The black workshop where I learnt to reach in the dark. The dark, where mysterious things happen. Beautiful struggles and the chance to will against everything. The will to fight through the silence and towards the whispers of the heart. But the darkness is not without its own dangers and it can become a place where you find yourself hunted and alone by a most ruthless enemy, your own doubts and insecurity.
One morning I woke up feeling horrible. After working so hard and for so long I was nowhere near a place where I could use a deck of cards to create magic. I didn’t want to move, I didn’t want to think, the only thing I felt was that I had been defeated. I knew there was no way for me to win. Maybe there was something wrong with me; why did I want to do this one thing that I knew was completely impossible for me? I knew I wouldn’t succeed. There was a reason why I practiced in secret and it was because I didn’t want anyone to feel sorry for me. I couldn’t stand for anyone to see me fail. I couldn’t face it anymore, I had to give up. And so I did, I made the painful decision to give up my hopes and my dream.
I thought that my life would just go on but it did not.
The silence is a void. It tempts you to quiet the longing inside. It wills to muffle the very sound of your heart beating. It knows and hates what the heart wants and says whatever it needs to so that you will give in to it. It is alive and it is hungry; it feeds on dreams and on the passion of your soul. It wants to devour the life that is inside of you, all for itself. It knows that when you act and you live with purpose it is deprived of the passion that is the friction between your soul and the world. It will do anything to stop you.
How did I escape the void and the darkness and enter back into the light?
That will remain a mystery of the dark for now…
One that will be revealed in The Will Within.
But know that I did break through to the other side.
Know that we are not meant to be defeated but that we are meant to win against all odds.
Know that where there is a will there is a way.
The following has been an excerpt from
MAHDI THE MAGICIAN
First Edition
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